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Wednesday, April 22, 2009

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i didn't know why my tears keep running today...yesterday....and yesterday....i wish i knew why but seems like i'm clueless..

dear...
as much as i wanna be strong...i've lost to tears
as hard i try to forget...i've failed
may time cure it fast as it's really over...and I'll open a new chapter....

before new chapter in my life started....

dear...
it started at that christmas...
how i wish it never ended in the next christmas...
and my dream came true...
but it ended today...
im sure when i look at you
you will never be the same anymore
to me...
as i'm used to be feel that way...
but now everything changed to zero..
back to where it was...
you now become my past
and you now become my new...
before im opening a new chapter in my life....
let the tears running and i shed my tears...
i'm happy...well at least....

love_piece

wah~

tanggal 5.47 am april 23, 2009.....hidup n matiku ditentukan.....plz...give some response.....

sshhhh......

now....4.20 am...
yeah....what am i doing at this hour?...of coz....finishing my unsettle business and fussiness of my almost ending day at uni...eerrrmmm...

juz now one of my friend send me msg saying why so hard to get me in contact...sorry pal...not that i'm busy or what...it just that i'm sooooo busy...not only with my super duper important task before graduating....also my end coming undergrad uni life.....how to deal with 3 things in 1 time?..i just follow what my heart wanna do la....easy....

for the last 2 weeks, aku dah macam kutu-kutu malam...eh...dah macam minah remp-it la pulak...ahakz~...why....masa tido aku....adalah pada pkul 8-1 petang..yup....and masa siang aku pulak....other than that hours la....entahla...and i'm now soooo addicted to coffee...if my family know this....
but this is the wonderfull undergrad lifestyle that i'm gonna miss....ney da tempat lain gik ku dapat molah kedak ya....kat rumah...jangan harapla....mun baruk balit dari uni...cuti sekejap2 ya boleh la my parents terimak....mun cuti ala2 seminggu and more...molah lifestyle kedak ya...nang kenak sindiran panaz....hehehe....

one of my friend say i'm lagging...hehehe...am i?...mayb kot....i'm hardly knows lot of thing happending at my surrounding...eh jap...aku kan 'kiah'...'kiah' di imagine kan seorang yang suka menyebok and ala2 astro bergerak gitu...hehehe...but...tok 'kiah' alaf baru...zaman mellenium...

dalam se busy busy aku (or aku buat2 busy...)...tertiba hati terdetik...kenapa sukar untukku meng express my own feeling...am i not truthful to my self?....berkata memang senang...mengarah memang mudah...tetapi...melakukannya memerlukan kekuatan....kesan dari tindakan perlu di ambil kira...damn..(menyumpah lagi aku ni)....
banyak pendapat yang ku titip dari sekeliling menyuruh aku meluahkan saja apa yang terbuku di hati...dan terpulang kepada empunya diri untuk marah, terkejut, kecewa atau apa saja yang dia rasa....terhadap apa yang bakal ku katakan...aku ingin jujur...pada dirinya dan juga diriku....salahkah untuk aku bertindak sebegitu?...

tetapi terlalu banyak pertimbangan yang harus ku fikirkan...ku tambah, darab, bahagia malahan tolak dan peratusan...masih belum ketemu jawapan....kadang-kala terlampau banyak berfikir menyebabkan sesuatu terbantut....tetapi jika tiada pertimbangan...kemungkinan bahana yang menimpa tidak harus ditolak tepi...huh~

kadang aku terfikir...kenapa manusia diberi banyak pilihan tetapi hanya mampu memilih satu?...manusia memang tamak...memang sifat semulajadi....janganla mengaku diri xtamak...aku pun sama...aku inginkan semuanya....aku inginkan semuanya berjalan dengan lancar...semakin ku menginginkan ia, semakin jauh ia untuk ku gapai....ia pula seolah bermain layang-layang...tauk nak pa maksudnya...ces~...

k...i'm talking too much....i wanna be transparent...but being transparent can cause me in deep trouble..confict in my self...i wanna people know my feeling...but i am too shy...or u already knew it?...kekekeke.....

love_piece

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Rachan day out...

jeng...jeng...jeng.... tetiba tangan ku bz jak nak tapi kat keyboard tok....k nak cita pasal apa o?...eerrmm pasal rachan jak la....kus2....

ok....dah nak g Rachan dah tok....
me and Sasa busy berpolah ngan sandwich....actually...tok la first time polah sandwich dengan kelengkapan yang kurang lengkap....yalah...kat umah almost semua ada...tapi kat ctok....semua limited edition....but in the end....jadilah juak sandwich ya....
then....mike gney nak ngengkah sandwich ya.....hehehe....taperware nang cute-miut jak yang ada........so...we decide....make mangkuk tingkat jakla....
peristiwa yang paling ...well i can say...memalukan was....

we need to go to lab that morning....
and kita org pegi ranchan pun morning gak....so....have to bawak tat mangkuk tingkat to the lab....wat!?...ngembak benda ya g lab....yup.....dahla berjalan kaki gik ya g lab...dengan mangkuk tingkat di tangan...fuh....malu wei....
but tahan jakla.....blasah jak.....dalam hati..." suka ati aku la...nak ngembak benda tok...."
k....then dengan biak junior2..(padah jak la cdak junior coz muka2 cdak nang x familiar kat aku) nangga semacam jak....me and sasa dengan muka coolnya berjalan dengan eksen nya kat lobby and ke lab....g lab mak mangkuk tingkat....xpenah dipolah oleh org kat ctok kali....nasib bait pagi ari...x banyak glak org.....

end of story mory kat lab....
then...cita kat ranchan....
at first nasib x sesat....tpi fui mei sesat juak...tegal sign yg mengelirukan....
and oooofff course...we had great great great timey....bila semua geng sama palak....plus ada yg gila2.....mmg besh ...pa jak activity pun semua mok join n x molah muka malu untuk join...kompom besh....hehehe..( terkenang time2 duduk kat ayek....)

antara kenangan time kat ranchan....


makan timey with sasa



fav pic....nice!

me and sasa...self posing...

makan....nang kenyang...dengan mee hoon yang dipolah geng dak yaya,tata n kid-kid....soodap....and of cozla sandwich mek duak....

then...tengah syok2 mek org enjoy...tetiba tepon aku berbunyi....

oohh no...nana tepon....dengan mengisyaratkan member2 aku untuk diam....aku menjawab panggilan dengan penuh berhati2....mun nana tauk apa di polah aku...nang kecoh wei....mati aku kenak bunuh ala2 mona affendi gitu.....

"hello....hau polah apa?...kat cney tok....pahal x balit gik?"suara nana kedengaran....kk...neves2 dah nak menjawab...
"oohh...aku gik busy tok...pahal?"...ces...jawapan...
"eh....ney kunci bilit hau?...aku nak merik baju tok? dah nak sampei unimas tok?"
oohh..tegal baju tek duhal....hehehe...sebenarnya....aku xda mbak baju kurung pun...kan kawen kazen aku...xkan nak makey jeans n shirt jak kot....nak ke pelik jak org nangga...macam xda adat la pulek....
"oohh...ada ku ninggal kunci tempat besa tek....pkul brapa hau nak g? banyak org tek?" tanyaku lagi.
"ooohh kak tok ku gi. nang banyak pun.semua ada kat ctok...hau sorang jak xda...semua org nanyak cney hau. bila gik hau nak balit tok?"
"ooh ku gik da keja tok..esokla ku balit." ces...penipuan lagi. memangla aku ada keja...keja berfoya-foya dengan geng2 aku...ahakz!....

nasib baik...memang nasib baik....sasa pun muka ala2 neves gitu..nak mampus mun rahsia aku pecah....ooohhh....nooo.....hehehe....

and yeah....we have again...great timey...sempat polah mesyuarat dalam ayer lagik....pasal dinner ...almaklum ketua PBB yg merangkap ketua Dinner biotech 69 busy meminta pendapat regarding our dinner....lots of ideas n ideas n ideas for our dinner...and also about Mr.Chin...hehehe

more images.....

...eeerrmmm binatang pa ka tok?...

..kkk...mek org posing....cdak laki macam besa....terlebih posing...hehehe(sak jak dak pompuan lebih dan kurang jak...hehe)

....

..senyuman mesti ada...walaupun sejuk...

...kan...kan....senyum tetap maintain....wah hoho n abe...

dah cukup dengan sejuknya dalam ayer....busy gik g kat jambatan gantung...ala2 la...xlah gantung gilak pun....then...ready to balik....
huhuhu sedey jak nak balit...sa mok jak masa tok berhenti....but b4 balit...mek org ada after ranchan plan gik...macam2 la cdak tok...almaklum hoho and jun2 puasa tek nak.....ada la plan makan2 ngan cdak....

ready 2 go back to hostel....n ready to kuar gik malam....

hehehe...k la....thats all kot untuk coret2 ranchan day out....tengah xda mood nak polah keja tok..thesis lom siap gik....study pun lom gik tok...apa nak jadi ngan aku tok...? huhuhu...



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Wednesday, April 15, 2009

mencarut....

it's been a long time.....alasan : busy
ntahla....busy....sememangnya itulah alasan yg selalu diberikan apabila gagal menepati/melunaskan sesuatu perkara.....

aku?...busy?....sememangnya aku busy...atau aku buat-buat busy?....ntah...nowadays my life becme complicated ...or can i say....i am the reason of the complication? gosh....

tapi sememangnya aku busy...aku sepatutnya busy tika ini...why?

1. i need to start n finish my writing...thesis....i juz love it and i suddenly hate it sooo damn much....why? because this is the first reason of my life complication....yeah....i know it sound..****

2. coffee....why mr smell nice guy? because i've run out of it and i need it sooo much....huhuhu....no nescafe....change to coffeemix (roomate aku pun...aku bantai jak...) without nescafe....my life....miserable....but with it...i mean if too much....it cause my insanity goes to the highest level....me...insane?....or insanity has become me?....duh!

3. facebook....? what...how come ...?because di saat aku pelukan FB....dia buat perangai...i mean....this connection....es stupido....bla...bla....bla....really hate you rite now, mr FB....eehhh wait?....how come i'm soo addicted with FB?....yay!

4. radio.....busy with this show....suppose to entertain me ...but instead it give me headache.....radio...shut up...(but i can't,....without it..i'm alone...the quietness give me madness....the feeling of unsettleness ....)....huh!

5.carbon dioxide....spirulina platensis....light...photosynthesis....sodium bicarbonate...what it's all about = circus....why?....i just wanna laught....( dah ku madah...aku busy dengan benda tok....dan benda tok nyuruh ku busy....jadi org xbrapa nak btol dalam bilit tok...dan menyebabkan tahap kewarasanku berasa di tahap yg paling bawah...)

oh god....please help me to endure this and these problems before aku hilang kewarasan.....dan menyebabkan aku meng up side down kan benda2 dalam bilik tok..(serius tok eh....mun ngamok...apa jak boleh terjadi dengan aku...roomate aku and barang2 lam bilit tok....dush..!)

.....tetiba aku teringatkan sesuatu....

"when i ask god for strenght....He give me problems to be solve..."

thanks dear friend for this....

then i saw something at my wall....written...:

"da feeling of unsettleness comes hunting me...around with all the dumbness and all the shitness...will pieces of epik comes and rescue me? or letting me drowning in the sea of F***ness...ohh...if just the damness that matters...?"...

ok...ok...ok...i noe how it sounds...with all the words...

really.....aku memang dah out...out...and out.....of ....huh!...

love_piece

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

perkabaran terbaru...part 2.....THE LIES b4 Ranchan Outing

seems.....got time....internet available....alone in second floor lobby....still waiting for Sasa....hungry perut....n sakit mata...eeh...nak pa ka?...haha

story-mory perihal plan yang patut aku lunaskan sebelum Ranchan outing timey....hehehe...

THE LIES B4 RANCHAN OUTING...

kepada keluargaku....mak...pak....wa ilot n family....n balo2 sekalian....gue mintak ampun ya....hehe

kejadian berlaku di suatu petang...sedang me, Sasa. Man-man, Yaya n Piz-piz menikmati lunch timey di McD...cdak Yaya (baruk jak declare jadi ahli McD lunch meal timey ya...yuran keahlian 5 cent...) n Man-man tengah busy-busy ngato program pegi Ranchan...cdak plan nak pegi ari ahad...cos Faz-faz da interview nak jadi YB....haha....
tengah cdak busy-busy...mek 3 Piz-piz n Sasa molah keja dikpun (makan lah gik nak...pa gik nak dipolah)...tetiba Yaya ajak mek duak Sasa pegi join sali....but xdapat cos i have wedding to attend...cousin aku kawen wei...nak mampus mun aku x pegi...kompom 10 taun wa ilot ku x nego....fuh....(walaupun lam ati madah....mesti best n havoc mun dapat join cdak)

tengah aku mike-mike patut x aku join(dah tauk nak ni lebih important...maseh wak ngago2 nak mike patut x join...haha)....tetiba aku propose....
"mun ari sabtu dapat mek ikut kitak org...mun ahad....sorryla....wedding cousin mek bah...important ya...." stat ku molah ayat...hehe
tetiba si Yaya terlebeh excited....
"ok....kita tukar plan jadi hari sabtu...."..n nya pun sebok lah call sana call sini madah pertukaran hari n banyak gik la hal berkaitan ngan outing mek org tek....

walaupun starting ari jemat n sabtu ya merupakan hari terpenting...se penting hari ahad.....maksud aku untuk kenduri kawen kat kampung ku....kampung aku tok lain cket....riuh mun ada kenduri...pengilan tek nak....cousin ku pun gik ya...nang misteri kehilangan ....mun aku xda...almaklumlah.....anak angkat @ anak buah kesayangan wa....mesti hadir time2 important....tapi xpa lah....janji aku dapat polah program2 ya sekali....kawan dapat...family pun dapat....

ok...balit semula ke cerita ku tek....
kompom dah plan ngan cdak....mike macam ne gik nak molah ayat...mengayat ngan parents ku gik....nak mampus mun cdak taun keja dipolah ku tok....
timey mak called...

"en...pa polah tek? bila balit..."...dah neves dah bila mak nanyak bila balit.....

n i reply...." mak....xpat en balit hari jemat tok....gik ado kejo...sabtu pun xpat juak en balit...ado 'PROGRAM BIOTECH'.." penipuan walaupun kebenaran....sudah bermula...hehe

n my mak reply..
"ooh...yaka...mun xpat xpa la....polah jak keja nun.." adoh...rasa bersalah bersarang di hati....
"eh en...wa nak klaka tok....rindu nya ngan hau eh..."....eermm...

"hello wa...wo...xpat en balit sabtu tok wa...ari ahad jak dapat balit...ado kejo gik nak dipolah tok...sorry wo.... hehe"...
"kau nang...kejo apo xpat ditangguh2 yo?...mun xpat xpo lah...tapi ahad tok mun muko ko x ngecol...siap..."...dah start stail klaka me n wa i kuar...hahaha....

at last....penipuan @ kebenaran berjaya.....walaupun banyak gik sms n phone call dari cdak family ku...semua cdak heran kenak aku xda timey2 kedak ya...sampei ada yang nanyak kat emak aku...."en blaja cney ka? semenanjung ka?"...haha....lawak2....semenanjung?...dekat jak ko....


k....tok jak lah tek yang mampu ku tulis...sakit dah mata ku tok....baruk jak part 2....the lies B4 Ranchan outing...hehe

mata ne....

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Pekabaran Terbaru....part 1

eerrrmmm....
Dah lama keyboard aku tidak mengalunkan rentak-rentak bernada riang untuk tatapan kalian...well, nak kata busy sangat....not really...in fact...i'm in the second last phase ...for fyp la...but have to wait greenlight from papa...if not....huahuahua....
mayb disebabkan prestasi wireless yang tidak memberansangkan...heck! entah kenapa jika ingin di pertingkatkan...lain pula permasalahan yang timbul....adat....eerrmmm....
Lately....banyak program-program yang telah dijalankan dan bakal dijalankan oleh BANGSA BERSATU ASSOCIATION...(nama tok sementara jak....wait for nama lebih canggih- manggih or classic)...hahaha....started at Rachan...then chaos at McD....then noisy and a bit of public nuisance (hahaha) at Jambatan Asmara...latest chaos at Hornbill....eerrrm....and future....BEACH... huh...i like!
At first...x sangka plan yang me n Sasa menyebuk time Yaya n Man-man planning kat McD. Ingatkan after tat plan....there will be no more...huhuhu...but then....the story continue to McD...and till now....n i hope this association will last....even if not forever....hope the ties will last forever....
Now....BEACH plan....last nite time lepak kat fsts...waiting for Man-man finish his busness with lenny....we have meeting with Chief of Food...haha...Faz-faz with all kinds of funny ideas regarding the foods....Ho-ho will lots of objections and complaints....me n Sasa with all the laugh....hahaha...
Hopefully the plan will be successful....cheerfull...and all the good shine-ful....and also....no more weird n silly pose of me in Ho-ho cam....hate it.....

Some candid pose ...taken by Ho-ho n Yaya cam ...me n my team....

weird pose taken by Ho-ho cam

luv this pic so much...

jejaka-jejaka yang selalu menghancusskan posing ladies2 (geng ompuan lah ya....cdak laki tok nang!)

Proven rite!......(rasa kacak jak cdak tok...hehe..boh manas)


duyung terkena sumpahan hikmat...jadi dugong...dah lah sik kacak gik ya...ahakz!part paling best....mulutnya....pa nak jadi ngan kid-kid tok....

memory.....

tok pic yang paling...paling....aku...ntahla...manas pun ada...geram pun ada...rindok ati pun ada....mix and match feeling ko....

...wonder??...ney aku ooo?..

Tok jak yang mampu ku post for the time being....after almost 5 weeks with nothing new....banyak gik program2 yang telah aku join...termasuk wed cousin aku....tedah cos aku datang lambat....terpaksa dan memaksa membuat pilihan antara teman dan keluarga...but manage to fulfill both...hahaha...

mata ne...! lak sambung gik....

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