a story of red wine part 10...emo...

eerrmm...for this new entry...macam biasa...alot want to share..but feels like not want to share..hahaha...nakpa ka?!...well...besalah..otak berserabut tok...siyes wei....
this week have been the most toughest week in my life...it's my family probs..my love dady...huhu...i really..really miss him right now...but being not able to see and to take care of him make my eyes tears...huhuhu...gney nak explain and madah..nang sik pat ku nak madah dengan kata-kata....i don't want people sympaty...but want i want is people understand me...dengan nangga muka aku jak..aku mok orang paham..xpelu aku nak explain or cita apa-apa jak...siyes..at this time around..aku sa mok jak minjam bahu pok k ku nangis..huhuhu....if only people that i want is here with me...sorang busy...jauh....gney ya?...actually sik mok bukak pekung di dada..tapi kat ctok jak ku rasa dapat meluahkan apa yang ku rasa....
nekt week i have to fly....jauh...sik mok nak pegi..tapi tok yang harus aku perjudi....hidup atau mati..peluang yang datang sekali sik mungkin akan datang lagik..mun ada pun pelu nuggu masa yang lamak...and i have to go..i need to go..it's about my future..and my future depends on hows my performance...damn..! (lamak dah aku sik curse gtok..)

and now..sitting infront of this cute pc..make me think...what i want in this life?...apa yang aku sanggup korbanku untuk benda lain? adakah cukup pengorbanan aku selama ini? atau apa sebenarnya yang alam inginkan aku lakukan...? perubahan? adakah aku patut berubah? haruskan aku mengubah norma yang selama ini aku praktikkan?...siyes...buntu...ah, alangkah bagusnya kalau aku tok jenis suka kelaka benda2 yang sensitif dengan orang or even kawan rapat...but that is just not me...sehapi ney aku, seopen ni aku...family is just 'no'...

p/s: in dilemma.....jangan sesekali nak ngaco...sorry...mun ada yang terkenak tengkingan or sik dijawap phone...harap maaf..mun boleh ku nulis kat skrin phone ya...not in the mood to talk..mok jak ku kah...sekian.....

p/s: dad..reaally...miss you...wish you here with us to celebrate pjul befday....

a story of red wine part 9...jeffery...

sitting alone in this cAFE...Suddenly i was approach by this cute young boy named jeffery...he asked me who own the pc next to me..and i said..ask the counter..
but the story does not end there...
he asked again...in iban language...the same question.again..and again..and again.. dah macam lagu 2 pm lah pulak....in the same languange..and i replied with the same answered...hahaha...
and yeah..he got the seat since actually it free ..hahaha...
and surprisingly..that young jeffery is so damn friendly..asked me lots lots of super duper cute question until i laugh.....nang pecah perut aku tetak..and rupa-upanya...nya biak primary skool aku dolok...hahaha..and yeah...he speak mandarin...not sure good or suam-suam kuku like me...hehehe and one question that 'alien' always asked me...are you iban@jawa..hahaha..muka aku tok kedak bangsa ya kah...iban/jawa...sik da termasuk lam kamus pengaliran darah aku kowh..im pure malay..even its not from the same negeri yang aku tinggal nektok..eerrmm..nakpa ka? mentang-mentang nya nanyak lam iban...tapi aku jawap lam melayu serawak bah...ambik ko.......
and aku heppi semula.....entah kenapa..teringat zaman sekolah rendah dolok...apa kabar dengan cikgu-cikgu kat cnun ooo....MR paul....ingat mek gney kitak ngaja mek side kick time blaja teakwondo dolok...hahaha...sweet memories jak yang aku simpan untuk primary skool..adalah bad memories...but..its neglegible...hahahaha....what a life...and now..im back to face the new world..what a word....suka ati jak aku tok.....k..ya jak yang dapat aku simpulkan my trip to cc....hahahaha...
p/s..wish i can reunite with my SK JALAN MUARA TUANG school mates...siaw khiun...siaw wei...salwati...and lots of my chinese friends whom i can't remember their names...lol...

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a story of red wine part 8...RAC

GOSH...i should name my blog a story of red wine...duh....hahahaha....kidda stress these few days...having too much of tot...kua...hahaha. been bussy with pok dealing with all-job-hunting- resumeing programme...hahaha...
fews days ago after tired went outing with my lost-lost friend and pok....beep beep the car alarm...sitting in front of tv just to watch some crack movies...hahaha...suddenly i recieved a phone called...from 03xxxxxx
i was like...eerrmmm sapa ka tok? malam-malam butak call aku...tapi aku jawap juak...

me: hello
man: ini cik ..... me: ya (but i could not hear cleary what this sweety man voices...coz of the tv sounds...besalah bila i dah nangga tv..nang kedak org pekak jak bukak volume tv segak rasa...sukat ati akulah kan....hahaha)
man: kami dari ....ingin memberitahu bahawa cik telah terpilih untuk menyertai.....(then seroiusly aku x dapat dengar apa sweett man voice tok kelaka...)
me: hold on...jap..jap...boleh ulang balik tak ape yang u cakap tadi...coz saya tak berapa dengar..( and now i moved to my room where i can talk without any disturbance from the tv sound...actually boleh jak aku slowkan volume tv ya...but sik tauk cney pegi control tv....hahaha)

then..baruklah mek duak dapat kelaka seperti orang yang bertamadun...hahaha...word....that 'words' thing..selalu jak mek duak pok sebut..its like our fav tagline or sumthing...hahaha...
and now..im in dilema...should i or shouldnt i go for that RAC programme....its too far la...at KLANG...(yup..i noe u guys would say...too far...come on...kat selangor jak..bukan kat dubai pun..) hahaha..nye lah ye.... i dot noe whether it is worth to go there or not....
i asked mamat....and he said...actually macam sik berbaloi jak..tapi mun ko nak experience gney assessment ya...and the flite ticket murah..pegi jaklah..beside dapat ko berjalan...menyelam sambil minum air...hahaha....DEE...should i go ka?....

banyak benda menarik before aku received phone called ya...jumpa orang yang baik hati kat SBC....jumpa kawan baik kat satok..lepak king ngan cdak kat KFC...being 'woo' (hahaha)..dengan mamat2 entah betul entah tidak...(rasa pa jak)....and more..more..more...
now.....

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