dilemma~

siyes ku dalam dilemma tok..suddenly ku sik rasa aku ada feel ngannya..aie..kenak nya boleh ilang dalam sekelip mata tok....we two baruk jak started..but then..baruk jak berjauhan sekejap...the feeling is not there anymore..WHY...WHY..WHY...??????????

aku sik tauk kenak...at first..time nya nak usha usha...bukan main gik...sms non-stop...and so on..at that time...aku rasa nang happy la....at least i have someone to share something kan...eerrmm..then...sikda piker panjang..aku terus say YES bila nya proposed....hurmmm...then mek org start berjauhan....SIYESLY ..time ya..aku wish nya akan jadi macam yang aku maok...aku maok nya sms me..call me ...or even chat wit me...hahaha...tapi...habuk pun tarak...sms...bila aku start..ya pun sik panjang kedak zaman mula-mula...then baruk 2,3 igek sms...nya ilang gia jak...GERAM!!!!...nak call?...hurm macam 2,3 malam jak b4 sleep..then..nya MENGHILANG!!!!!!!!!...AGAIN...then..i'm the one who TERHEGEH2 nak cal...even nya SAKIT..aku tauk dari orang lain...wah...macam sik guna jak aku bergerek kan>?!

and now..aku nang sikda MOOD ngannya...aku GERAM tahap gaban ngannya...nya slalu ilang bila aku mengharapkan nya sik ilang...hurm....

and aku nektok carik PENYAKIT agik...kidda rapat dengan one of my staff..gosh...jaikkan aku tok...hurm...but IT'S MY LIFE..im free to do anything that I WANT....GO OUT WITH ANYONE that i wish..and have a good time with SOMEBODY that care for....hurm.....kenak aku jadi makin jaik tok....

dear...sooo soory...i don't know by saying YES is a wise decision for u and for me..it just that i don't feel that 'feeling' anymore at this point ..maybe the distance is the problem..,or it's me the problem....i JUST DON'T KNOW.....

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