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Friday, October 30, 2009

a story of red wine part 10...emo...

eerrmm...for this new entry...macam biasa...alot want to share..but feels like not want to share..hahaha...nakpa ka?!...well...besalah..otak berserabut tok...siyes wei....
this week have been the most toughest week in my life...it's my family probs..my love dady...huhu...i really..really miss him right now...but being not able to see and to take care of him make my eyes tears...huhuhu...gney nak explain and madah..nang sik pat ku nak madah dengan kata-kata....i don't want people sympaty...but want i want is people understand me...dengan nangga muka aku jak..aku mok orang paham..xpelu aku nak explain or cita apa-apa jak...siyes..at this time around..aku sa mok jak minjam bahu pok k ku nangis..huhuhu....if only people that i want is here with me...sorang busy...jauh....gney ya?...actually sik mok bukak pekung di dada..tapi kat ctok jak ku rasa dapat meluahkan apa yang ku rasa....
nekt week i have to fly....jauh...sik mok nak pegi..tapi tok yang harus aku perjudi....hidup atau mati..peluang yang datang sekali sik mungkin akan datang lagik..mun ada pun pelu nuggu masa yang lamak...and i have to go..i need to go..it's about my future..and my future depends on hows my performance...damn..! (lamak dah aku sik curse gtok..)

and now..sitting infront of this cute pc..make me think...what i want in this life?...apa yang aku sanggup korbanku untuk benda lain? adakah cukup pengorbanan aku selama ini? atau apa sebenarnya yang alam inginkan aku lakukan...? perubahan? adakah aku patut berubah? haruskan aku mengubah norma yang selama ini aku praktikkan?...siyes...buntu...ah, alangkah bagusnya kalau aku tok jenis suka kelaka benda2 yang sensitif dengan orang or even kawan rapat...but that is just not me...sehapi ney aku, seopen ni aku...family is just 'no'...

p/s: in dilemma.....jangan sesekali nak ngaco...sorry...mun ada yang terkenak tengkingan or sik dijawap phone...harap maaf..mun boleh ku nulis kat skrin phone ya...not in the mood to talk..mok jak ku kah...sekian.....

p/s: dad..reaally...miss you...wish you here with us to celebrate pjul befday....

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